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One more step... Continuous improvement

One more step...
Continuous improvement

Its back! After 2 years away, your favourite Char

Its back!

After 2 years away, your favourite Charity event is back, this year in support of the Vererans mental health charity, Combat Stress.

https://combatstress.org.uk/

As always we do this to remember 9/11 and the victims of that day. So gather your crew and take on the simple task that is 3021 burpees in a team and help make a difference.

Who doesn't love a good burpee

Open to all, not just CFFA Members 😁

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Short hike to clear the head

Short hike to clear the head

So i wasn't going to do this again but here it is

So i wasn't going to do this again but here it is

There has been a lot of noise lately on how there are few outlets for men to talk to someone when they are struggling, i see videos of people (mainly on tiktok) with the sad face at guys pointing out that they have no outlets and we don't. But this 'trend' is not cool

So respectfully, Fu*k you

My struggling isn't a way for you to get likes, or views.

How dare you use my pain to try and heighten your popularity
If you really want to help, reach out to someone and actually help......and don't film it.

There are guys (and girls) out there like me, right now who feel abandoned for reasons they do not understand. Who feel ostracised and confused as to why, no matter how hard we try we are still lost

Believe me that feeling of abandonment and confusing is a daily thing, we feel it all the time and mask it.

You want to do something about the problem that we face daily, then do it but stop using other peoples suffering to try and bolster your likes.

My pain is not your gain.

And to those of you that do step up daily, don't stop.

After over ten years we finally got the band back

After over ten years we finally got the band back together.

These two are the best things that came out of working at the 'E' and was awesome to the the A Team together for a proper decent catch up.

On to the next one.

And no jules still hasn't made the tea

Valentines So its a nice warm and fuzzy time to de

Valentines
So its a nice warm and fuzzy time to declare your undying love for that special someone, yes its a made up hallmark holiday but its cute, right ?
Unless its not
Then its another pressure point, another trigger another, another reminder that your alone and, at least in some eyes, not good enough
The shelf really is a cold place to sit.
So there it is,
And its not ok
Its these kind of stressors and, in all honesty the constant pressure on Social Media of what normal is that make it difficult to keep a level head
I'm i ok ?
Nah not really
Being single again is crap, especially when you don't deserve it (you / I / we don't)
So here it is, being in a relationship takes work, being alone is much much harder
If you're on your own this weekend, know that you're not, at least not totally
Know that its ok to feel a bit lost
Its just another day , just one day at a time

#peace

Oh My... One thing i did not count on when i start

Oh My...
One thing i did not count on when i started trying to get into coaching is how damn difficult it can be to try and get on the ladder, and how difficult it would be to get experience needed to make a go of this.

Qualifications are easy, but getting time in front of a class...gold dust

How hard can it be to get a spot to support existing coaches, for free

ill not quit but OMG
#peace

Throwback to when i thought could fly... Steps to

Throwback to when i thought could fly...

Steps to get back to this incoming

#peace
#rebuilding

Here's to all of those that step up without being

Here's to all of those that step up without being asked

Its been a funny year and a troublesome few months, but even in the dark there is the presence of light ( deep right?)

So if you are one of those that were there without being asked or in some instance even knowing me that well, you are the light.

2021 may not have panned out the way i expected and it may have been a struggle, but these struggles make us stronger, but sometimes you need someone to lend a hand or ear

There have been many disappointments this year, but some positives.

2022 is unknown, if i learnt one thing its that you cannot rely on anything. Only yesterday and today are certain. It also shows that there are always good things around the corner if you look for them

Here's hoping for a Happy new year for us all

Better, strong smarter
#peace

I've thought long and Hard about posting this, and

I've thought long and Hard about posting this, and sorry if it seems long and seems self indulgent but here goes.

Merry xmas, but I need a hug. I mean it, I hope you have an amazing xmas and new year, all of you, even you.

This time last year I was blissfully happy. Everything had slotted into place and I thought I had beaten the odds, despite all the covid restrictions. I was at peace, happy, loved (i thought) and my future was bright. I had big plans and never thought that I wouldn't get to live them out, then, well shit!

Fast forward a year and all that's gone. And I still don't get how or why, not really. All there is now is silence , I hope no one ever has to feel this way but I know many do. This year I'm hurting, broken in ways I can't describe, sad, dejected and very very scared. Essentially I’m grieving and you don’t get over that in a few weeks.
I know I'm not fun to be around.. I'm trying to shake it but I'm so very tired and need to stop lying when people ask are you ok?

So No, I'm not ok, I'm really really not. And it's no one's fault, not really, except maybe mine.

This year there is no tree, no presents, no celebrations and nothing really to look forward to, (quality street?). It'll be quiet and not what I expected this time last year. And yet, some people I know have reached out and have been there. I am eternally grateful to everyone who does that, for me or anyone, you really have no idea how much a simple text can make a difference (do people still text ?)

But a positive!
I know that I'm in a fight, I have opened up to individuals in ways I wouldn't have done a year ago. Mostly they have been receptive and supportive, thank you, all of you.
I know I'm a decent person, and somehow that decency will triumph, this will get better.
So merry xmas to you if you're reading this self indulgent crap.
If you're with someone this xmas, hold them close. (If you like them that is)
If you're alone, well you're not alone in that, and if you want to talk to a fellow totally messed up individual and share a tequila then hola, seriously, talking helps.

And if you're bored already, sorry i did warn you it was a long
#peace
#itsoknottobeok

One of the few highlights this year... May it be

One of the few highlights this year...

May it be a stepping stone to better days

Back in the day...training squad.535 platoon

Back in the day...training squad.535 platoon

Still not got the hang of these selfies tbh

Still not got the hang of these selfies tbh

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Last time i promise Sunrises

Last time i promise

Sunrises

Last morning sunrise Much thinking done on this #

Last morning sunrise

Much thinking done on this #soloholiday . And hell of a lot of walking.
Still a long way to go.

Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds,

Memories are better shared
#peace

Last full day of #soloholiday new beach

Last full day of #soloholiday new beach

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