Smiling I remember, the way she wears her hair
How she smooths her skirt down as she gets up from her chair
The sparkle in her dark eyes, and her teeth so pearly white
The magic and the sparkle in her smile so bright
Despite my efforts not to, I’m drawn to her each day
To hear her voice, to see her smile, find an excuse to stay
Maybe she already knows, perhaps she’s realised
That she’s put a spell on me, but then that’s no surprise
The music in her laughter, and the smell of her perfume
Would turn the head of any man and dominate the room
But dream to dream is all this is. there is no place to go
So I’ll just sit and think of her, but never let her know


So here’s the truth
It’s not so sad
There is no good
Without the bad
There is no black
Without the white
There is no darkness
Without light
So when you feel
The days too long
And all events
Are going wrong
Remember this
Its oh so true
All things good
Will come to you


Don’t hide yourself away my dear
Don’t hide yourself away
Cross you heart and hope to die
That’s what they used to say
Ponder not the past my friend
Nor worry what might be
Do your best today my friend
We’ll see what we shall see
Regret not what might have been
If only you had said
The words or deeds you should have done
Will just mess with your head
Be true and love yourself my love
And what will be will be
Live your life in peace and joy
And please remember me

Its been a while

It’s been a while since last I saw
you walk into this place
I haven’t had the chance to say
I love to see your face
And time goes by, I try to think
Of ways to make you see
There’s so much more that I can give
just take a chance on me
I love to see the sparkling light
That dances in your eyes
The way your laughter captures me
Your warm smile like sunrise
It’s been a while since last I had
The chance to say your name
I wonder of you think of me
And if you feel the same

Alone in a crowd

I’m in the group but make no sound
I stand alone in jovial crowd
I struggle for the words to say
So quietly watch the world at play
And as I watch and see the throng
I know not how I should belong
I’ll try again another day
I’ll find the words I need to say
I’ll find my place and join the crew
And finally dance all night with you

Silly old fool

I’m a silly old fool
It has to be said
These daft idea
That pop into my head
I’ll fly to moon
On a bright blue kite
Or travel the world
On the seat of a bike
But there’s once dream
That may come true
It’s dream about me
And a dream about you
The places well see
In far away lands
The walks that we’ll take
As we shyly hold hands
The talks that we’ll have
The kisses we’ll share
The people may look
And we just wont care
I’m a silly old fool
As I said at the start
But ill still dream of you
You’re here in my heart

sunday 25th October

This was a pretty good, weekend, after a pretty good week.

I feel like i turned a corner and feel good for it, the bitterness is less invasive. There is no annoyance but a resignation that, I will do all i can go my boy and what ever else happens is all good

I’m happier.

I feel more together, and I have made a pact with my self to be better, every day.
I will not get annoyed at things I cannot control, i will either control them or let them go. There are, I believe, still some amazing people out there and I intend to try and be one of them.

I have in the past, not too distant past if I’m truthful, allowed things to spill out into my present. But i noticed that this was not a good look, and was apparent it was making the wrong impression. when events presented themselves to show that the situation was nto going to chance by itself, I changed it. it really was that easy.

Tomorrow will be a good day because for the first time in a while, I feel like I have some control.

I have no idea why. or maybe I do, maybe I’m just in a better place with better people. maybe I get to start over. I guess its kinda up to me


Lifes lessons

These are life’s lessons that I have learned
That respect like success is not given, but earned
That honour and trust, Can set you apart
That the truth, like a smile, Can capture her heart
That listening will tell her you mean what you say
And that keeping your word will persuade her to stay
That being her friend, will set her at ease
And that sharing you fears, her anxieties appease
There is no trick nor game to be played
Just be a real man who believes what he says
Hold open the door, and say ‘please’, ‘how do you do?’
Treat her like your queen, who means all to you
And when she smiles, and looks in your eyes
You know you did right, by forgetting the lies
Just respect your girl and her trust will be earned
These a life’s lessons that I have learned

Life goals

Make it your goal to find that one person with whom you can be with, in total silence and know in your heart and soul that this is exactly where you are supposed to be, if you can do that, then you are truly blessed.

The Clown

Pity the clown as he sits in his room
Alone in the dark, the silence and gloom
See how he sits with a smile on his face
Lost in his thoughts with paint on his face
He live’s every day to put on a show
To lighten your load to ease every woe
And as you head home his mission complete
He’s left all alone, there’s no one to meet
And all you can do is walk by

Pity this clown alone in his life
Dealing each day with his issues and strife
He spends every day just trying to be
A friend to you all but you just don’t see
The Clown that you see, has now where to go
The strain of the smile, well its starting to show
And each time you call for his act to begin
He’ll jump up to help, a smile and a grin
But no one is there to ask why

Pity this clown the smile on his face
remember his heart his warm gentle grace
As he tumbles and toils just to fix all his pain
And he hides in the dark just to cry